Wednesday, August 11, 2010

...He Grabbed Two Beers...

This post is dedicated to Steven Slater, the Jet Blue Flight Attendant who gave the coolest job resignation since Scarface in "Half Baked."

There are whispers at my job that they want to promote me to a new position.

Hold your applause.

I’ve witnessed enough in the last few months to be skeptical about this. Certain people around these parts believe in the move them up… and then move them out method of termination: “We created this position just for you. Oops, we don’t have any more funding for it. Sorry! HR will send you your last check one day within the next 90 days. Been nice knowin’ ya.”

Most of the players involved in this theatrical production are people I feel mostly confident that I can trust. (Yes, shocking, I know. But I do actually trust people on occasion. Very rare, few, and far between occasions, but still…) But that “gut feeling” in me tells me to not to rest easy on this one.

As you know I have a problem with honesty. I relish it in other people, and have an over abundance of it myself. Lying is more effort than I have to spare, so I’m truthful about everything. Or else I just keep my mouth shut.

But you can see where these could create problem.

There were a couple of situations where my honesty and bluntness maybe left a few people rattled. “Important” people. Like birds- that- can- shoot- back- if- you- ruffle- their- feathers type of people.

These people are suspiciously silent about the whole thing. These people also previously ignored and avoided me and now they smile and make a point of speaking to me whenever our paths cross which I find, frankly, a bit on the shady side. None of this helps my paranoia.

I’ve been asked if I would be interested in the “upgrade.”

My answer was a hesitant “yes” through tightly gritted teeth. Which made my headache bad. Which made me angry. Which made me eat a cookie –except the cookie didn’t help. So I wasted a perfectly good cookie enjoyment experience. I don’t like having my mind all wound up about things I’m not even clear on and really can’t do much about even if I was clear on it.

I’m thinking the lesson in this is supposed to be about “relaxing” or something. Trying to accept the situation, or go with the flow… grow in the mud like a lotus- something like that.

Or maybe it’s another sign that it’s time for me to make some personal changes and make some moves.

I don’t want to be in my home, I barely want to be in my own body, and now I’m starting to question being in a job that I’ve always loved. It’s rare to love your job. And I’m glad to be working, but …

…One wonders--again-- if maybe it’s time to wander off somewhere.

You tell 'em, Scarface!

This song wasn't really stuck in my head, but it seems to be "following" me around- it just keeps popping up for some reason. I really, really miss real singers.

The song cuts off before the video does, but the quality is excellent. And the song is absolutely beautiful- classic favorite!!

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